Innie Burnout & Updates
Updated: Aug 1, 2018
Ever get into one of those moods where just the SOUND of your phone ringing makes you roll your eyes and want to throw it across the room? As introverts, becoming overwhelmed and exhausted by daily socialization and responsibility is a very real thing.
There’s been a social buildup, as of late.
Most of you know, we lost my grandma a few weeks back, on my birthday. My parents, bless them, have battled long and hard against her dementia for the last few years. Towards the end things got rough, and thankfully, she passed surrounded by people who loved her. I got to hold her hand, for which I’ll be forever grateful.
My gram and I were very very close through my younger years, all the way up through my early 20’s. My hubs and I moved to New Mexico shortly after we married, but her and I always kept in touch. I’d fly back all the time to surprise her... jumping out from behind my dad like he crafted me from thin air.
Because of this, I felt like I had to write something for her funeral. I knew she’d want me to. She was always so proud of my writing, growing up, and I wanted to do her memory justice.
Funerals are difficult for everyone, obviously.
For an introvert, having to be “on” for a three hour period while you speak to relatives and family friends is exhausting.
Combine that with having social anxiety and having to stand up and speak...
Yes, It was a very difficult day, for many reasons.
On top of all the unexpected chaos, my husband and I have been planning some personal stuff of our own that’s taken a lot of time,energy and focus. As well as a lot of phone conversations, which as any introvert knows is no bueno.
We had a vacation scheduled (the first one we’ve taken together since our honeymoon 9 years ago) to St. Lucia. Because of everything that happened, we had to push that back a few weeks, and I’ve been trying to get everything straightened out with the travel insurance to cover the costs of that.
We’re also selling our old house in NM that we’ve been renting out.
So, yes. I have been on the phone and dealing with people WAY more than I ever anticipated or wanted this month.
Since we leave Sunday for our trip, I’ve been trying to tie up loose ends from everything I mentioned above, while simultaneously trying to de-clutter my house and set things aside for a garage sale once we get back.
Man, I don’t know what it is about typing that all out in front of me, but now I’m feeling even MORE overwhelmed than when I started! Usually, writing calms me down. I can't catch a break here. :-P
Needless to say, I have Innie burnout.
I’m at the point that as soon as my phone beeps with a message or rings, I am instantly irritated.
Not to mention I've been REALLY emotional, especially with my husband.
I've also been short and snippy with my kids.
My insurance company called today and I bit the poor ladies head off (so unlike me) because she wanted to "discuss my medications" so I told her, "I have a $3000 deductible- you never have anything to do with my meds. Why do you need to discuss them with me?!"
The idea of adding even ONE more thing to my to do list makes me want to pull the covers over my head and hide from the world and adulting forever.
I’m pretty sure this is what happens when introverts are forced to put on their extrovert faces for longer than they should. It wears us thin, like sandpaper, and because of that- we too, become abrasive.
Unfortunately, InnieMom has taken a bit of a hit because of all of this. I haven’t been posting as regularly as I’d like, and I definitely haven’t been writing as much as I need/want to.
Thanks to my TMOAI girls for jumping in and helping me with my Facebook page the last few weeks when I was too overwhelmed.
A BIG thank you to all of my readers and followers who have stuck around. I promise, I’ll get out of my funk and post more updates soon!
I am so excited for my vacation, you guys. I feel like it’s needed.
My husband and I are on the same level when it comes to a proper introvert vacation, which is nice. We don’t do a ton of activities. We usually set aside a few fun things we’d really love to do, and the rest of our time is spent lounging and relaxing (for me, probably with a good book or two).
I’ll post some pics and keep you all updated!
In the meantime, what are some of your innie burnout horror stories? Share in the comments!
Thanks for reading!