The Night Before
The house is quiet tonight.
The boys are at my parents in preparation for our 5am trip to the hospital.
All of the toys are put away.
All of the laundry and dishes are done.
There are no baths to give or lullabies to sing.
I've spent the last 6 years of my life being the mom to two beautiful boys. I know how to spike up short hair, be a fierce pirate, or tell stories of princes fighting fierce bears in the woods.
Tomorrow, I will meet my daughter face to face for the first time, and a whole new adventure is going to begin.
This adventure is new to me.
I don't know the first thing about styling hair, or telling princess stories, or how to be a good enough woman to set some sort of worthy example for how I hope she will be when she's older.
But just like when I first looked into the beautiful blue eyes of the tiny, fierce, blonde haired little boy who flipped my world upside down... I will learn.
I will be whatever she needs me to be. And though I won't come anywhere close to perfect, I'll remember that one day the house is going to be quiet and clean for good... And these three incredible humans that their dad and I are raising will be out in the world with lives and families of their own...
And by the Grace of God, I will fight every single day to be better than my absolute best for each of them.